by butterfly01pa » Fri Nov 25, 2011 11:04 pm
Hi...I was sober a month short of 3 years. Felt great, and am going back to school. I have so much to be thankful for, but my husband became ill. He had 13 surgeries from May until October which culminated in an amputated foot. He was so ill, and had 3 bypass surgeries to his leg, due to diabetes. One night, when I thought he was going to die, my daughter had some friends over (yes all over 21), and I drank. I slept at the hospital every single night for months. Then in a few weeks drank again. Now I am drinking 3 beers and 2 double shots everyday. I cannot let this go on. My body feels like crap. When the hubby was in the hospital I missed 2 psych appointments;therefore I was without meds, and self medicated. I truly believe that if I had my meds this would have never happened. I was not sleeping at all, and the booze allowed me to sleep. Now I have to wait 6 weeks for meds because of waiting for a shrink appointment. I am afraid to go to local psych hospital, because if they know I am drinking they may not give me meds. DO I go , and not tell them, and take my meds? I would not drink with them. I am much too scared. I am so so embarrassed that I drank, because I was so looked up to, and my family was so proud of me. I am just lost. I do not want to drink at all. I am not even liking the taste of it, but I feel so manic, and it is the only relief I get.
Hi...I was sober a month short of 3 years. Felt great, and am going back to school. I have so much to be thankful for, but my husband became ill. He had 13 surgeries from May until October which culminated in an amputated foot. He was so ill, and had 3 bypass surgeries to his leg, due to diabetes. One night, when I thought he was going to die, my daughter had some friends over (yes all over 21), and I drank. I slept at the hospital every single night for months. Then in a few weeks drank again. Now I am drinking 3 beers and 2 double shots everyday. I cannot let this go on. My body feels like crap. When the hubby was in the hospital I missed 2 psych appointments;therefore I was without meds, and self medicated. I truly believe that if I had my meds this would have never happened. I was not sleeping at all, and the booze allowed me to sleep. Now I have to wait 6 weeks for meds because of waiting for a shrink appointment. I am afraid to go to local psych hospital, because if they know I am drinking they may not give me meds. DO I go , and not tell them, and take my meds? I would not drink with them. I am much too scared. I am so so embarrassed that I drank, because I was so looked up to, and my family was so proud of me. I am just lost. I do not want to drink at all. I am not even liking the taste of it, but I feel so manic, and it is the only relief I get.