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Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saltywishbone » Tue Jan 07, 2014 9:35 am

I live on a ranch owned by my parents. A 6-pak of beer was left in the outside refridge after the big holiday get together. It has been calling to me ever since. I suppose I could go dispose of it but I would prefer not to since it is not mine. Then I think "What a weak pathetic guy I must be to be bothered by a 6-pak in the fridge". Just a silly situation I thought I'd share with someone. Hope you all had a good and sober Christmas.

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Sun Dec 08, 2013 8:53 am

day 51
The days are def. becoming harder to just not think about drinking..... i already think about it everyday, but its getting very hard to not entertain the thought! yesterday i smelled the smell, it is a delishious smell but it reminds me so much of alcohol and being drunk..... I will keep on doing the best i can!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Thu Nov 28, 2013 6:43 pm

day 41
i haven't been on for a few days! but im still sober so far! it is thanksgiving today and it was very hard at a lot of different moments, as well as yesterday was! ugh..... but proud to have made it! I hope everyone who wanted to make it through made it as well if you didnt there is always tommorrow to start again, if you did congrats!!!! Happy Thanksgiving to everyone out there.... hope your holidsy is safe and happy....

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Fri Nov 22, 2013 10:59 pm

day 35
I know some days are better than others for everyone..... why do the bad ones feel so awful, as if you are in a black hole unable to feel anything but negativity, no matter how hard you try to change the mood, it doesnt help! Finally, the feeling goes away and your just there exhausted from feeling so sad or so angry! It really makes you appreciate the days that you feel so good.....Thank god for the bad too though otherwise we wouldnt appreciate the good as well as we should!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Thu Nov 21, 2013 7:41 pm

day 34
what will come of these holidays? i know a lot of people struggle with this! not to mention why are there so many commercials of booze on? were they always there? i must of been to drunk to take notice if them! except for the budweiser ones i remember! of course i see these commercials and want desperatly to try all of them! but maybe some other time!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Wed Nov 20, 2013 11:02 pm

day 33
I thought the annual christmas party was cancelled, it was a sigh of relief to hear considering i made a complete ass out of myself last year...... which is a story for a different day! Well sadly it is back on, i am hoping to have something else to do that night, lately i have been questioning if i should just drink some times but i know deep deep down i shouldnt and sometimes i get weak and give in to the temptations of the drink, thinking it will be the last timeor even a one time thing, but i know the truth, the trick is not forgetting it!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Mon Nov 18, 2013 10:47 pm

day 31
I just saw someone told me awesome job on staying sober! Sorry I missed, your post before, and thanks! if you are staying sober yourself or trying my congrats to you as well. Anyway, today I have easily slid by without a drink! some days are very easy and some not so much, i actually am afraid of the days that are so easy in a way because i think does that mean the hard days Are going to be extra hard?... but its just like everything else in our lives!some days are good and easy some are bad and hard! My daily reading today was a quote ( i cant remember from whom) it said " bite off more than you can chew, and then chew it."just thought id share that with anyone, sometimes a little quote or word can make ao much sense to us at any given moment!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Sun Nov 17, 2013 10:19 pm

day 30
I made it 30 days without drinking, now entertaining the thought of drinking that is a different story! does that ever go away?

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Wed Nov 13, 2013 8:56 pm

day 26
I hope all are doing well! I believe to be! I dont have many words to say at the moment, of course i felt like i did but sometimes all the thoughts just leave! But i am sure they will come back!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Tue Nov 12, 2013 10:21 pm

day 25
i enjoy reading the different replies people have gotton from their posts, particularly AA! I have been in and out of AA since i was a young teen...... I am sure i wasnt that serious About much then or other times ( about drinking that is)! I am not very certain why i am in denial about going to AA but i am! I am determined to post things everyday or at least try for everyday and continue reading helpful books and giving myself reminders about why i really shouldnt drink! I am wondering if anyone out there made it not drinking and not going to AA! I onow if i dont make it this time, i promised myself to give AA another try! i am almost at 30 days of no booze, this will be the second longest i have not drank in 20 years the first time i had 29 days that was about 11 years Ago, the second j had about 4 monthes, that was about 2 yeArs ago, now i am working harder than before, ofcourse you can always work harder! I am just babbling now..... all i know is i made it today so far!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Mon Nov 11, 2013 11:04 pm

day 24
i wasnt able to get on here on day 23 but i made it..... i am feeling thankful to be here today and able to do the things i can do! thanks to whomever!

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by lizadoo » Mon Nov 11, 2013 11:02 am

awesome job staying sober! :D

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Sat Nov 09, 2013 8:47 pm

day 22
usually when i know no one was going to be home for awhile i would plot out to drink a few and stop in time before you could smell the alcohol on me or look like i was drunk! ofcourse neither i would never stop in time! I must say tonight i was home alone and did not hit the bottle!!!! It feels good to have not and give my girlfriend a feeling that she could trust me when im alone! or start to a little anyway.... I did think about it ofcourse bit pushed the thought out of the way and kept myself busy! anyhoot thats all for me today i guess for now.....hope everyone is doing well out there...

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Sat Nov 09, 2013 12:19 am

day 21
Technically it is the start of day 22 but since i have not gone to sleep yet it still is day 21!!!! I despertly wish it was saturday at 3 so i would be done work, (ha ha) i just really am not in the mood to work this week!!!!! Today after work i did miss taking a couple of swigs out of the old grand dad bottle ans chasing it with a beer ! I however did not miss trying to cover up the smell , hide any evidence of empties or whatever it is im hiding, lying about drinking or how much ive ' really' had,or the fight i have with myself of having another and actually beleiving it will be the last one when i know damn well when i start its never the last one...... at least 9 1/2 times out of 10 thats the it goes!! Sadly, it remains a consuming part of my life and yes i do miss the drink and that really annoys me for now! I am working on accepting that I may possibly think about alcohol for the rest of my life, ive thought about it all this time, I guess the difference is is that i thought about it and drank about it....

Re: holidays are moving in.....

Post by saucy » Thu Nov 07, 2013 11:12 pm

day 20
The viewing was a viewing, sad but gave me the nicer memories i had with my friends more apparent then the ones that made me have uncomfirtable feelings......Those memories are really nice and ill treasure them always!
obviously i made it through yesterday without a drink, otherwise today would not have been day 20!

I have been thinking about stupid drinks and what i will do at parties like for instance my one friend talks about having game night, i worry about the alcohol there! The night isn't wven set up and may never be and im already worried about it!
Its weird the time i spend thinking of alcohol! maybe one day i wont! I find that hard to beileve but not impossible....