by InVein44 » Sat Jan 29, 2011 5:03 pm
My dear no one can do it alone. My story is LONG but I am willing to tell it. I have batteled it for 14 years. I have OCD, Paranoia and severe anger issues. Since i don't know you that well, I won't presume to speak down to you but let me say this. i NEVER got sick, for the 1st year, I didn't know what sick was but when it came, I thought death was the ONLY escape. Death rejected me, for a reason I hope. IDK what ur drug of choice is however if you need help, if you need to vent, scream, get it out of your system before it breaks you, I am here. Anyone in need can contact me. I am far from winning the battle but for the 1st time in all these years I am ready! Ready is what i thought i was many times but I lied to myself. Now that things are diferent, I feel it, I KNOW it, this will be my time. I have 3 reasons that i never had before.
#1. I want to "want" to live
#2. I love my family, knew how I was hurting them but I have someone (never a user) who has accepted me, loved me & taken on 2 jobs so I can get the help I need. This man hurts when I hurt, lives his life as if he was born to be here for me, I never wanted to change to make another's life better.
#3. I have a big fear/phobia of being away from home. When i would hear 28 days or more, I thought that was a LIFETIME! Now, it seams that time is a simple drop in the buckett. Still afraid, I am ready. I only wish it didn't take so long...
I'll be here for you.
My dear no one can do it alone. My story is LONG but I am willing to tell it. I have batteled it for 14 years. I have OCD, Paranoia and severe anger issues. Since i don't know you that well, I won't presume to speak down to you but let me say this. i NEVER got sick, for the 1st year, I didn't know what sick was but when it came, I thought death was the ONLY escape. Death rejected me, for a reason I hope. IDK what ur drug of choice is however if you need help, if you need to vent, scream, get it out of your system before it breaks you, I am here. Anyone in need can contact me. I am far from winning the battle but for the 1st time in all these years I am ready! Ready is what i thought i was many times but I lied to myself. Now that things are diferent, I feel it, I KNOW it, this will be my time. I have 3 reasons that i never had before.
#1. I want to "want" to live
#2. I love my family, knew how I was hurting them but I have someone (never a user) who has accepted me, loved me & taken on 2 jobs so I can get the help I need. This man hurts when I hurt, lives his life as if he was born to be here for me, I never wanted to change to make another's life better.
#3. I have a big fear/phobia of being away from home. When i would hear 28 days or more, I thought that was a LIFETIME! Now, it seams that time is a simple drop in the buckett. Still afraid, I am ready. I only wish it didn't take so long...
I'll be here for you.