by The_Cable_Guy » Sun Sep 18, 2011 3:54 am
Not sure why I felt the need to post because my situation and story goes allot like yours! Been getting high for as long as I can remember. I get clean put my life back together and always find a way to self destruct. And here I am once again, Three years into it I have my kids, wife, job and just about everything else going for me. Living an ideal respectable life. Unfortunately I live day to day feeling unaccepted and socially retarded, I constantly feel like something is missing, even though I have everything any sane person could ask for. Left to my own devices Im at that cross roads again. Been getting high for almost a year now and really cant tell you how Ive held on thus far without loosing anything. Usually by now Im jobless and living in my mother basement. Stealing and cheating whoever I can just to get by. What they say is true, it will catch up with you, just when you think you have things under control, or that you have this thing beat.
Long story short today I am making a conscious decision to not use! Today I will go to a meeting for the first time in years! Today I will keep my family, friends and loved ones close and thank god I still have them in my life. I was fool once again and am Extremely fortunate to have been show some kind of mercy this time around!
Not sure why I felt the need to post because my situation and story goes allot like yours! Been getting high for as long as I can remember. I get clean put my life back together and always find a way to self destruct. And here I am once again, Three years into it I have my kids, wife, job and just about everything else going for me. Living an ideal respectable life. Unfortunately I live day to day feeling unaccepted and socially retarded, I constantly feel like something is missing, even though I have everything any sane person could ask for. Left to my own devices Im at that cross roads again. Been getting high for almost a year now and really cant tell you how Ive held on thus far without loosing anything. Usually by now Im jobless and living in my mother basement. Stealing and cheating whoever I can just to get by. What they say is true, it will catch up with you, just when you think you have things under control, or that you have this thing beat.
Long story short today I am making a conscious decision to not use! Today I will go to a meeting for the first time in years! Today I will keep my family, friends and loved ones close and thank god I still have them in my life. I was fool once again and am Extremely fortunate to have been show some kind of mercy this time around!