by RAM » Tue Feb 02, 2016 6:04 pm
It is absolutely MY pleasure Jennie09. Responding to you heals me too!! Just remember - I reiterate again - you are not broken!! Is someone with cancer or eart disease broken? Nope -just have a disease - they need medicine but they are not broken.
Every one told my GF she was broken - no hope but I got through that as has the rehab now she understands!!
We need medicine too - in the form of a 12 Step Program and gaining spiritual support!
So my experience 25 years ago - although I was so-called spiritual - I was afraid, shy, did not get what they were saying especially about the 12 Steps, etc etc etc. But the warmth was there. I felt love, I felt caring.
That got me through my first day. Then the next etc. I did not say anything i those meetings until the 6th - then I was so moved - just overwhelmed with love and caring not only from the members but from some sort of heavenly embrace - whatever you want to call it.
I cried (yes, men cry too if they are real men) then something prompted me to speak and tell my story - it was a horrible story but no different than everyone elses story - that is what makes us all unique.
On a snowy cloudy, dismal day in January 1991, I walked out of that meeting happy, full of joy as though the sun were burning bright and warm. And that night I slept in peace and joy - soundly for the first time in a couple of years. It has gotten better and better day after day every year for 25 years.
Does that mean I have not faced challenges - UH NO! Lots of them - but by working the programs, going to meetings, getting a Sponsor etc etc, I Have not picked up - one day at a time (You hear that phrase a lot - I got annoyed with it those first few meetings but have come to love the phrase LOL).
So now my GF needed help - she has the benefit of going to a rehab and getting even more support but now she gets it and is experiencing the same things I did -after only 52 days - I love her so much that would do anything for her (except drink). And now she is going to a Safe House for 90 days (jeez I mss her but it is good for her and her focus needs to be on HER recovery, not our love at the moment)
I hope thius helps a little. Write a pm if you want more information
It is absolutely MY pleasure Jennie09. Responding to you heals me too!! Just remember - I reiterate again - you are not broken!! Is someone with cancer or eart disease broken? Nope -just have a disease - they need medicine but they are not broken.
Every one told my GF she was broken - no hope but I got through that as has the rehab now she understands!!
We need medicine too - in the form of a 12 Step Program and gaining spiritual support!
So my experience 25 years ago - although I was so-called spiritual - I was afraid, shy, did not get what they were saying especially about the 12 Steps, etc etc etc. But the warmth was there. I felt love, I felt caring.
That got me through my first day. Then the next etc. I did not say anything i those meetings until the 6th - then I was so moved - just overwhelmed with love and caring not only from the members but from some sort of heavenly embrace - whatever you want to call it.
I cried (yes, men cry too if they are real men) then something prompted me to speak and tell my story - it was a horrible story but no different than everyone elses story - that is what makes us all unique.
On a snowy cloudy, dismal day in January 1991, I walked out of that meeting happy, full of joy as though the sun were burning bright and warm. And that night I slept in peace and joy - soundly for the first time in a couple of years. It has gotten better and better day after day every year for 25 years.
Does that mean I have not faced challenges - UH NO! Lots of them - but by working the programs, going to meetings, getting a Sponsor etc etc, I Have not picked up - one day at a time (You hear that phrase a lot - I got annoyed with it those first few meetings but have come to love the phrase LOL).
So now my GF needed help - she has the benefit of going to a rehab and getting even more support but now she gets it and is experiencing the same things I did -after only 52 days - I love her so much that would do anything for her (except drink). And now she is going to a Safe House for 90 days (jeez I mss her but it is good for her and her focus needs to be on HER recovery, not our love at the moment)
I hope thius helps a little. Write a pm if you want more information