by Ryan's Sister » Wed Nov 26, 2008 5:08 pm
Cosmogirl,
I saw that you posted for help on a lot of threads. I'm sorry to hear about your use, abuse and the loss of your friend.
When I was younger, I needed someone to talk to and found a councelor/ therapy group that charged on a sliding scale. Since I was young and didn't have any money, they took me for free. At that time I was having some of the same issues you are expressing, some different. It was good to talk to someone and seek answers that were scaring me.
You have asked about E and the meth causing a permanent brain damage, a councelor may be able help you seek the answers you need, at least about what these drugs do to your brain.
You understand that you are abusing and that it has to stop, and it sounds like you've been through a lot of issues, you already know you should get some help. That's a good place to start.
All the other drugs & alcohol you mentioned abusing are contributing to an addiction, even if you felt "fine" after using them.
I'm sure a lot of people here wished they could go back to 16 and get help before it was so far along and so much was lost, friends, family, loved ones, money, things they sold to get high, things they did to get high...
You have a chance to save yourself and stop this before it gets any worse.
If you can, talk to your parents. Tell them you need real help. If you really really truely cannot talk to them, get help from somewhere. Find an NA meeting (they are posted on the internet for your area), find a sponsor... don't wait anymore.
Good Luck
Cosmogirl,
I saw that you posted for help on a lot of threads. I'm sorry to hear about your use, abuse and the loss of your friend.
When I was younger, I needed someone to talk to and found a councelor/ therapy group that charged on a sliding scale. Since I was young and didn't have any money, they took me for free. At that time I was having some of the same issues you are expressing, some different. It was good to talk to someone and seek answers that were scaring me.
You have asked about E and the meth causing a permanent brain damage, a councelor may be able help you seek the answers you need, at least about what these drugs do to your brain.
You understand that you are abusing and that it has to stop, and it sounds like you've been through a lot of issues, you already know you should get some help. That's a good place to start.
All the other drugs & alcohol you mentioned abusing are contributing to an addiction, even if you felt "fine" after using them.
I'm sure a lot of people here wished they could go back to 16 and get help before it was so far along and so much was lost, friends, family, loved ones, money, things they sold to get high, things they did to get high...
You have a chance to save yourself and stop this before it gets any worse.
If you can, talk to your parents. Tell them you need real help. If you really really truely cannot talk to them, get help from somewhere. Find an NA meeting (they are posted on the internet for your area), find a sponsor... don't wait anymore.
Good Luck