by Guest » Tue Jan 27, 2009 11:04 am
Don't give up.It will be hard to stop and I know it feels like there is no way. But really there is. You can stop. I use to do everything too. I was addicted to speed, used like everyday. I would do pretty much do whatev anyone had. I started doing everything about 14 yrs old, drinking, smoking, weed, acid, shrooms, coke, speed, E. I hear ya when you start drinking you need a line or vise versa as soon as I did a line I needed a drink. I grew up in a very unstable house. There was alot of "partying" around me. I used speed mostly for 11 yrs, my last 3 yrs were the worst. Up for a days, weeks at a time. I started going crazy in my head and I knew I had to quit. It took 2 years of on and off tring to quit. Finally been clean (of just snorting things) for 2 years now. I quit by just stopping everything and the help of my husband. I had a crazy detox period where I couldn't get out of bed and when I did I was horrible. That took about 2 weeks, I alos gave up smoking cig. at the same time. I still smoked weed for a long time, and feel as thought it isn't really that bad. Alot of people I know smoke and I don't judge them. I haven't smoked in over a month. I went back to drinking. I now am dealing with my drinking problem. I make really bad choices when I drink and get out of control. I am scared if I keep drinking I will just go back to my old ways, alot of people very close to me do drugs and it is a struggle everyday not to join them. I haven't drank in 7 days, tring to stay sober. Everyone is telling me to go to aa, but scared too do it. I think reading books about the 12 steps and staying sober helped me, I also keep a journal. Good luck.
Serenity (got it from a book)
grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Don't give up.It will be hard to stop and I know it feels like there is no way. But really there is. You can stop. I use to do everything too. I was addicted to speed, used like everyday. I would do pretty much do whatev anyone had. I started doing everything about 14 yrs old, drinking, smoking, weed, acid, shrooms, coke, speed, E. I hear ya when you start drinking you need a line or vise versa as soon as I did a line I needed a drink. I grew up in a very unstable house. There was alot of "partying" around me. I used speed mostly for 11 yrs, my last 3 yrs were the worst. Up for a days, weeks at a time. I started going crazy in my head and I knew I had to quit. It took 2 years of on and off tring to quit. Finally been clean (of just snorting things) for 2 years now. I quit by just stopping everything and the help of my husband. I had a crazy detox period where I couldn't get out of bed and when I did I was horrible. That took about 2 weeks, I alos gave up smoking cig. at the same time. I still smoked weed for a long time, and feel as thought it isn't really that bad. Alot of people I know smoke and I don't judge them. I haven't smoked in over a month. I went back to drinking. I now am dealing with my drinking problem. I make really bad choices when I drink and get out of control. I am scared if I keep drinking I will just go back to my old ways, alot of people very close to me do drugs and it is a struggle everyday not to join them. I haven't drank in 7 days, tring to stay sober. Everyone is telling me to go to aa, but scared too do it. I think reading books about the 12 steps and staying sober helped me, I also keep a journal. Good luck.
Serenity (got it from a book)
grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.