by danger maus » Thu Aug 14, 2008 3:00 pm
I'm new to sobriety. I used to think I was jut a binge drinker who needed to get a handle on myself....until I was detained last week for public intoxication and disorderly conduct. I don't even remember half of it, just that I lost my cell phone and stupidly just wandered off to look for it instead of getting in the car with my friends to go home. I think that was the wake up call I finally needed that this really is out of hand and I have a problem. I know I've had a problem all along but I guess this is the time I'm finally acknowledging it. It doesn't help that I've had 2 DUI's in the past 4 years and that people who've only met me briefly seem to only remember me as "that girl who really likes to drink". I finally just decided I've had enough of that. I want to have fun when I go out and actually remember it the following morning. I also don't want to wake up and have to worry I did something stupid the night before and can't recall it.
The only thing that makes me nervous is that my boyfriend drinks, and he does like to go to bars. He's supporting me in my non-drinking, but I don't know how easy it will be for me to go places where we used to hang out and drink....and not do it. It's going to be extremely awkward. I'm not sure how to get around that yet, and would honestly prefer to avoid the whole bar scene for awhile. At least until I'm 100% used to this new lifestyle. And that's what it really is to me, a total lifestyle change. I can't do the same stuff I used to or go the same places.. It's going to be strange for awhile. Until I get a new routine/lifestyle established. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also scared and nervous, mostly because of the unknown. I know my life will improve, but it's still scary.
I've been going to meetings a few times a week and I'm just looking for that one meeting where I really just feel comfortable. I'm 26 years old and I've noticed around my area (Gilbertsville) that there aren't that many young people going to meetings I've been at. Can anyone advise me on a good meeting where the majority of the crowd is under 40? Nothing against older folks, but I just don't really relate to most of them. I really want to stick to this, but I feel like if I have no one to relate to I may end up drinking again. I've gotten a couple phone numbers from people but I have anxiety and am not good at just calling people, even if they've told me to. I'm just funny like that. I'd rather get to know someone a bit first beforehand.
Anyway I hope this wasn't too rambly and someone can help me out.
I'm new to sobriety. I used to think I was jut a binge drinker who needed to get a handle on myself....until I was detained last week for public intoxication and disorderly conduct. I don't even remember half of it, just that I lost my cell phone and stupidly just wandered off to look for it instead of getting in the car with my friends to go home. I think that was the wake up call I finally needed that this really is out of hand and I have a problem. I know I've had a problem all along but I guess this is the time I'm finally acknowledging it. It doesn't help that I've had 2 DUI's in the past 4 years and that people who've only met me briefly seem to only remember me as "that girl who really likes to drink". I finally just decided I've had enough of that. I want to have fun when I go out and actually remember it the following morning. I also don't want to wake up and have to worry I did something stupid the night before and can't recall it.
The only thing that makes me nervous is that my boyfriend drinks, and he does like to go to bars. He's supporting me in my non-drinking, but I don't know how easy it will be for me to go places where we used to hang out and drink....and not do it. It's going to be extremely awkward. I'm not sure how to get around that yet, and would honestly prefer to avoid the whole bar scene for awhile. At least until I'm 100% used to this new lifestyle. And that's what it really is to me, a total lifestyle change. I can't do the same stuff I used to or go the same places.. It's going to be strange for awhile. Until I get a new routine/lifestyle established. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also scared and nervous, mostly because of the unknown. I know my life will improve, but it's still scary.
I've been going to meetings a few times a week and I'm just looking for that one meeting where I really just feel comfortable. I'm 26 years old and I've noticed around my area (Gilbertsville) that there aren't that many young people going to meetings I've been at. Can anyone advise me on a good meeting where the majority of the crowd is under 40? Nothing against older folks, but I just don't really relate to most of them. I really want to stick to this, but I feel like if I have no one to relate to I may end up drinking again. I've gotten a couple phone numbers from people but I have anxiety and am not good at just calling people, even if they've told me to. I'm just funny like that. I'd rather get to know someone a bit first beforehand.
Anyway I hope this wasn't too rambly and someone can help me out.