by gm320 » Sun May 23, 2010 11:19 pm
I'm the youngest of 6 children, the oldest is 32 and im 16. Almost all of my siblings, were or are still addicted to something. The main reason why everyone is so screwed up is because growing up my parents were alcoholics. My dad had always been a drinker since he had his first kid. My mom started drinking after I was born. So my whole life the only parents I knew were drunk ones. At least the other 5 had there mom, I never had that. I remember some things that I don't ever want to think about again. When I turned about 14 my mother was taken by an ambulance to a hospital because of cutting herself and after that she whet into treatment. She came out and did really good for a month... then relapsed because my father was still drinking. They both kept drinking for 2 years, then stopped (im not actually sure why they did), and have been clean 5 years today. Even tho they did stop, me and my sisters/brothers got the shit end of the stick. Dean, the oldest has been a durg/meth addict since he moved out and got 2 women pregnant and can't support them. Beth was a heroin addict for 2 years but got clean, thank god. Ange had a baby at 19, uses codeine, and STILL lives with my parents at the age of 22. Danielle has panic attacks over stupid stuff. Walter (my best friend) was a pill poppin, pot head, drinker until he joined the army, but now he drinks every night. Then there is me, who has done everything in the book but never became completly addicted. Ive done drugs with all of my siblings who are addicts and thinks everyone is crazy. The one thing that bothers me, is that even after all of this has happened, "everything is fine". but no one is, we are all "fucked up, insecure, nerotic, and emotional". None of us know any sense of control and they have no sense of family. Im sick of it, I want out. I wish i could tell someone more of the story but its so long and i have no one to talk to.
I'm the youngest of 6 children, the oldest is 32 and im 16. Almost all of my siblings, were or are still addicted to something. The main reason why everyone is so screwed up is because growing up my parents were alcoholics. My dad had always been a drinker since he had his first kid. My mom started drinking after I was born. So my whole life the only parents I knew were drunk ones. At least the other 5 had there mom, I never had that. I remember some things that I don't ever want to think about again. When I turned about 14 my mother was taken by an ambulance to a hospital because of cutting herself and after that she whet into treatment. She came out and did really good for a month... then relapsed because my father was still drinking. They both kept drinking for 2 years, then stopped (im not actually sure why they did), and have been clean 5 years today. Even tho they did stop, me and my sisters/brothers got the shit end of the stick. Dean, the oldest has been a durg/meth addict since he moved out and got 2 women pregnant and can't support them. Beth was a heroin addict for 2 years but got clean, thank god. Ange had a baby at 19, uses codeine, and STILL lives with my parents at the age of 22. Danielle has panic attacks over stupid stuff. Walter (my best friend) was a pill poppin, pot head, drinker until he joined the army, but now he drinks every night. Then there is me, who has done everything in the book but never became completly addicted. Ive done drugs with all of my siblings who are addicts and thinks everyone is crazy. The one thing that bothers me, is that even after all of this has happened, "everything is fine". but no one is, we are all "fucked up, insecure, nerotic, and emotional". None of us know any sense of control and they have no sense of family. Im sick of it, I want out. I wish i could tell someone more of the story but its so long and i have no one to talk to.