by johnnyc_jacksonohio » Sun Jul 05, 2009 3:59 am
High functioning alcoholic or drug addict does not mean that we are not alcoholics or drug addicts, and that is what I missed for so many years I wasted by continuing to perform those acts. My drug dealing was very serious, and I would not post them here, or anywhere else for that matter, but I have been sober for over 21 years now, and do not deal, use, or drink at all. You have a right to be mad at the officer who busted you - hell, I was, until I worked the steps many many times, and my Higher Power seen it fit that I ran into my cop at an AA Dance, yes, an AA Dance pulling Special Duty because it was also Casino Night, and we had a chance to talk as men. At first I was really miffed about him even being there, and then my sponsor walked up to me, and said "Damn, isn't that so and so who popped you?" , and before I got a word out of my mouth he said "time for you to make amends to him for bad talking him, and ..... (fifth step stuff here, lol) and you can wipe him off your list of people to make amends too". We had a great night, and I learned allot about how they busted me, how many hours they put into getting me so they could seal the cage shut on my ass, and how much they really thought I was a public enemy. It opened my eyes even wider about not only my recovery but other peoples recovery too. He showed me that I was a valuable person to have being sober in our society, and how I was an asset to the community being in AA helping others as I was helped. My Higher Power knows what He wants for me, even though I don't know what He wants for me to do most times. You work the Steps and He will show you what He wants you to see, and others around you will see Him in you, and you in Him, thus Alcoholics Anonymous message and purpose will be carried on as it should. Thank you for sharing, and Love You Lots! JohnnyC Jackson, Ohio
[b]High functioning alcoholic or drug addict does not mean that we are not alcoholics or drug addicts, and that is what I missed for so many years I wasted by continuing to perform those acts. My drug dealing was very serious, and I would not post them here, or anywhere else for that matter, but I have been sober for over 21 years now, and do not deal, use, or drink at all. You have a right to be mad at the officer who busted you - hell, I was, until I worked the steps many many times, and my Higher Power seen it fit that I ran into my cop at an AA Dance, yes, an AA Dance pulling Special Duty because it was also Casino Night, and we had a chance to talk as men. At first I was really miffed about him even being there, and then my sponsor walked up to me, and said "Damn, isn't that so and so who popped you?" :( , and before I got a word out of my mouth he said "time for you to make amends to him for bad talking him, and ..... (fifth step stuff here, lol) and you can wipe him off your list of people to make amends too". We had a great night, and I learned allot about how they busted me, how many hours they put into getting me so they could seal the cage shut on my ass, and how much they really thought I was a public enemy. It opened my eyes even wider about not only my recovery but other peoples recovery too. He showed me that I was a valuable person to have being sober in our society, and how I was an asset to the community being in AA helping others as I was helped. My Higher Power knows what He wants for me, even though I don't know what He wants for me to do most times. You work the Steps and He will show you what He wants you to see, and others around you will see Him in you, and you in Him, thus Alcoholics Anonymous message and purpose will be carried on as it should. Thank you for sharing, and Love You Lots! JohnnyC Jackson, Ohio 8) [/b]