I am in HELL
Posted: Fri Aug 27, 2010 9:40 am
Well another night of hell. I picked up a 12 pack and drank that and harrassed a man I love by texting him the whole time and threatening him. Then, a 12 pack was not enough, I drove drunk and got another 6 pack so I drank 18 and then around 11:30 p.m. I got a call from my 17 yr old daughter and she needed me, I was not there for her. She was also drunk and needed a ride. My ex fortunately got her but I really let her down. I am scared for her also and do not want her to go thru this hell. I am very sick today but did manage to come into work. I have to drink to do anything. I can't imagine my life without it. I have been in and out of AA meetings and they do not work for me at all. I feel even more depressed when I go and I am sick of men hitting on me. I do not know what to do but I know AA is not the answer for me. It is like a revolving door for most people. I have had 3 DUI's and also totaled my car and I have also been to rehab.
Can anyone please give me some suggestions. I am lost and sometimes just feel like I want to die.
Can anyone please give me some suggestions. I am lost and sometimes just feel like I want to die.