by cantsay » Mon Apr 09, 2007 3:50 pm
My husband is an alcohol/cocaine addict, we have been married for just over a year, and there have been way too many problems to count. Alot of times, he just takes off, and leaves me at home with our 14 month old son. When he comes home - usually when he is coming down - I am miserable. He sits there and twitches, won't talk, and there are just so many signs that doesn't even have to say anything, I just know. He was almost a year sober when we got married, I thought it was clear sailing. I keep threatening to leave, but I am a stay at home mom - no source of income - and I don't even have a GED. My husband won't allow me to go to school or work because he wants to me to be a stay at home mom. We just moved into my dream home, and everything has gone wrong. The downstairs flooded, our new couch came complete with a broken leg, and we've been here for almost a month, and alot of our stuff is still at our old apt. So he says everything stresses him out so much he goes off and does his thing to relax. Even when everything is right he leaves!! This Easter that just passed we went to his parents house and did an egg hunt, and games, and just had sooo much fun as a family. After that, he dropped my son and I off at home (saying he was gonna take our washer and dryer back to best buy cause improper installation was why our downstairs was flooded). Instead, he goes out buy his stuff, sniffs it on the way home, and acts like he didn't do anything wrong. I am miserable, and I worry about what my son is seeing. My husband has taken off when the baby needed formula, when he had a fever, and when I've been sick. It just seems like he doesn't care. Then he tries to find something to pin on me. He speaks to me like I'm nothing, tells me to leave, and I just get hysterical. I love him with my whole heart, but really how many chances can I give him? Is this a lost cause, or can he make a change for himself, me, and our son?