by hurting38 » Sat Dec 28, 2013 5:10 pm
I am mother of 3 small kids,and wife of alcoholic and cocaine user for 10 years.Still until today he denies he has a trouble.He treats me with disrespect,lies to me and most of all does not come home for 2-3 days almost each week.I did test him few times for drugs,it came positive,but of course it was wrong test.He drinks straight for 2-3 days.He promise to stop,and each time it is different,but no change,and it is-roller coaster.My kids are broken hearth-ed,as they wake up to learn,daddy did not come home again,and so the trip he promised to them will not happened.They suffer and are sad as how dysfunctional family we have,and how dad lie to mom,and how I am miserable unhappy person.I have no friends,no social life.I work hard,take care of kids,household,and manage to help others ,but 10 years is too long,nothing has changed ,and i am tiered,exhausted,angry.I want to separate,but he refuse it.He has anger issue,and after his drinking episodes,blames all on me.He had many accidents,we lost 2 homes,he moves his business from location to location,and makes big promises,has big dreams,but it is not happening.What is my step to move out? I cant deal with it any more or support his wrong doing.I cant accept it that alcoholism is disease. Please help.I am not sure meting will help me either,as I want to just get out and have a peace. I cant take it any more all the stressful nights waiting for him to come home,and hoping I wont get call ,that he had an accident or so......He started group therapy and counseling 1 time per week,but right next day he drinks ...