I want my parents to die
Posted: Sat May 08, 2010 1:04 pm
I know that's a horrible thing to say, especially from someone who's 8-1/2 years sober, but I have tenth-stepped, and turned the other cheek and compromised all I possibly can without losing my sobriety and/or sanity.
Now my mother has started throwing stuff in my face that happened years ago, and using AA against me, claiming she, who still drinks (because not everyone needs AA or has to stop altogether, you know), has "been through the system," and knows all about AA and claims I am NOT living the proper AA life because I refuse to dance to her tune. I am not a teenager, I am a 58 year old woman who was severely abused as a child, the textbook "oldest child of alcoholics" who's been trying to please them all her life. I can't do it anymore, I'm going nuts right now because at this point the only solution is to tell them they're out of my life for good.
I need some Al Anon advice. Anyone out there who'd like to take this on?
Now my mother has started throwing stuff in my face that happened years ago, and using AA against me, claiming she, who still drinks (because not everyone needs AA or has to stop altogether, you know), has "been through the system," and knows all about AA and claims I am NOT living the proper AA life because I refuse to dance to her tune. I am not a teenager, I am a 58 year old woman who was severely abused as a child, the textbook "oldest child of alcoholics" who's been trying to please them all her life. I can't do it anymore, I'm going nuts right now because at this point the only solution is to tell them they're out of my life for good.
I need some Al Anon advice. Anyone out there who'd like to take this on?