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CRACK

Unread postby Stupid is as Stupid does » Thu Aug 16, 2012 5:49 pm

Yes, I'm a crack head. I need help. I'm think I ready to start. I will attend a meeting. I still need help to walk in and see what goes on. I don't really know anything about starting. Any one have an extra security blanket? I thought I was fearless, now I am scared, shaking, lot of weird emotions. I think I'm strong enough, just need some help. I am planing to go somewhere in the NE, Friday evenging the 17th. One major concern: I'm also trying to quit smoking, and lost weight. If you knew me you would never think that I'm a Crack Head! I wear many hats. I've been living a second life for many years. Time to come clean before I go to jail or die or lose everthing that is dear to me! Any one that can help I'm ready to make the first step!
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Unread postby arthur27 » Sat Sep 22, 2012 4:47 pm

I to have the problem, and its gotten worst., i live in fear all the time. i just can,t seem to get to a meeting, i always say i,m going but never do. i used last night, and u know how i feel now. i din,t what to do...
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Re: CRACK

Unread postby margie129 » Thu Feb 28, 2013 7:45 pm

I have the same problem say i need a meeting and never go,I used last night I hate myself I feel so guilty I was suppose to help my son get a car I had over 4000 now i am down to 700 I can't even look at my son I know he knows I blew the money on crack.What do I do?My son hates me now I can't help him.I'm so disappointed in myself.I let my kids down once again.
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Re: CRACK

Unread postby LisaRu45 » Wed Mar 13, 2013 4:43 pm

I know the feeling i have been an crack addict for like 17yrs off and on more on than off i hide it by day rasied my kids and was a crack smoking fool by night. i now have 4 kids 7 grandkids and still fight the addicition. i want to free so very bad i do without so many things i shouldn;t and my 12yr is at home with me so not fair to her. i want to be clean and i do fine but than comes my 14yr partner who is my youngest daughtrs father, he is a very bad addict. i try to beg for him to leave me alone he brings it to me every chance he gets and in hopes i wil have money for more. he lost his family cause of his addiction and only has us left but he is getting very very bad and bringing me with him. i cant break free
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Re: CRACK

Unread postby Spike » Sat Mar 16, 2013 9:40 am

Hang in there but know this: when it gets to be too much then you will RUN to get help! I know. It wasn't until I went on a binge, and wound up being admitted to a psych ward after admitting that I was trying to kill myself and could not stop smoking. Sooo much despair, depression and degradation from using. Believe me, all of you people who say you smoke crack and have successfully hid it from others or wear many hats in your life are in denial. Either your addiction hasn't progressed yet or you are not an addict or you are just lying to yourself. Eventually, any one who smokes crack all night will lose everything. With me it started with my self respect and esteem, then the money (drugs cost a lot!) then the lost time from work and time with my kids and feeling tired all of the time. Then I ended up in a psych ward being called a crack head. My oldest son urged me to go to a rehab which I did and now I am going on 3 years clean and sober, I go to meetings and have a sponsor. No, at first it wasn't easy getting clean but NA and AA are the only things that work. It was either do the work suggested by NA and AA or die or be committed to institutions or jail. This is real stuff. Bottom line, I had to frigging grow up!
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Unread postby Spike » Sat Mar 16, 2013 10:09 am

I used to disappoint my children so many times over my using. Using drugs is a very selfish act and addicts are selfish ego driven people. Get help you two. Sometimes you have to hit bottom in order to climb out of the messy and nasty pit of addiction and see the light of recovery. I hit bottom when after a 3 day crack smoking binge I was committed to a psych ward. I will have 3 years clean and sober in September of this year. I now look at all the ways I help and support my children as a clean and sober parent. When my son needed to get car insurance he called me at work and I hooked him up with my insurance agency. If I was using I either would not have been at work or would not have been current in my payments to the insurance agency. I compare my life to what it was before and I am grateful to be sober. I came to NA and AA humbled and beaten down and through all of my resistance to the suggestions given to me finally surrendered to these programs. I was a chronic relapsed but today I am practicing the tools of the programs . What choice do I have left? Depression, despair and a miserable and sorry life or the gratitude of a clean and sober life? And self respect for myself and from my kids who today say: mom, we are proud of you! Crack will take that away for me as it has done for you. Get help and pray for strength and the courage to do so.
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Unread postby russty » Tue Nov 05, 2013 5:04 am

Im a rock head an im never gonna stop im just gonna kill myself
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Unread postby DD04 » Sun Feb 02, 2014 7:35 pm

I initially started crack to stabilize my drunk ness and then I found out I was indeed an alcoholic as well. I have been to 2 six month rehabs and 4 to 5 detox centers. I was once sober for 12 years through Christian faith never really knew about the rooms. I relapsed and lost family a 6 figure job and all my respect. My last 6 month rehab was two and half years ago and I have been clean since. I want to live a good life for myself because I want to leave a good legacy when I do die. I have three sons and three grandsons. If you want to live and are an addict then rehab is an excellent option if you can not stop by going to the rooms only. It will take you away from easy access and teach you about the disease. I try to stay connected although I have moved 4 times in 2 years regaining my career back. If any one is interested in a sponsor I will be glad to sponsor. I am moving to PA in two weeks and would like to meet people in the program as well.
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Re: CRACK

Unread postby Denis G » Sun Jan 25, 2015 12:44 am

they say your bottom is whenever you decide to stop digging. Its a very simple plan, I know it works, I've seen it working for my father for 30 years and it is now working for me. Go to a meeting, introduce yourself, and ask for a sponsor. Then you and your sponsor will work the 12 steps. Atfirst u may just take a temporary sponsor. Keep going to meetings and search for a sponsor you like, you may find one who shares and you feel you can relate to his or her story. Picking a sponsor is like a job interview. I have certain criteria for mine. How many years do they have clean. How many other people are they sponsoring( this is a very important one, you don't want someone that is sponsoring 4, 5, 6, 10 people because they wont have time for you so make your limit of people that they sponsor 1 or 2). Always remember, if ya feel alone, your not. You have more in common with the people in the meetings then you would think. For me it didn't take just walking into a meeting. I admitted I was powerless and put myself in a rehab. If you want what I have take the 1st step and give up and let go. I will pray for you. Alone I can't but together we can.
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