by kristin1029 » Mon Nov 18, 2013 7:40 pm
hello my names kristin, im from mayfair, philadelphila. i dont get to go to meetings alot only like 2 or 3 times a week because my parents are very strick on me and i work alot and and im a single mother of a three year old so i dont have a babysitter all the time and my parents have temp. custody of my son so they will not let me bring him to meetings also so its very hard for me to ask them to watch him all the time. im stuck in a very sucky situation. i do have a home group i do have a sponser and im reading on my steps and pretty much doing what im saposed to for the most part but i still feel like crap like im not doing enough for my recovery. i have 67 days today. its a very big deal to me because i had 22 months a year ago and i wasent working the program and when i went in and out of it i never stayed long enough to get past my thirty day key tag. and now being able to get sixty days in it is awsome for me.My dad has been very suppotive with me lately. my mom is a recovering addict she has 11 years clean but she went to meetings for a year and stopped so shes very miserable in her life everyone tells me that shes a dry drunk. but se its crazy shes always up and down up and down, hot n cold hot n cold. like i never know what her mood is going to be and it really effects me. now i know im still working on my first three steps i actually just was saposed to start my third step but i still really practice the first step by making myself relise that i am powerless over other people and i cant let it affct me..some days im good with it other days no so much but im trying...alsoooo relationships? i know im crazy for even saying that word so early on in recovery but can some people tell me there point of views on recovery and dating someone in recovery who has clean time under there belt but what are your guys thoughts on that? who ever reads this thank you for taking the time and reading this and i hope someone reaches out to me...also im saposed to speak on thanksgiving day at my home group for a marathone meeting and i am really nervous we are having one meeting that a new commer and and old timer are speaking at and im the new commer that will be speaking and im really nervous and i just get in my head thinking i am not going to have anything to offer someone i dont know if am saposed to tell my story or what im saposed to do? im saposed to talk about what im greatful for iam greatful for alot of things but as soon as i get in my head its all negitive and i feel like im just going to embaress myself speaking...some pointers please!!! thanks guys!!!