Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose.
I got tired of the feeling of being nothing and having nothing.
Try to remember that your feelings are not real, reality is real, and your brief escapes into the bliss are not going to change shit.
Id and your ego are messing you up, your addiction is trying to control you, you don't know what to do or what you want.
Stop putting shit into your body and let your balance come, get high on you, feed yourself and exercise 5 hours a day if you can, and you will break the cycle.
Your life is not your life. Your life is your daughters life. God would not have keep you hear if he didn't want the best for you.
You have a hard job because you know that you can make a difference. Pray to God to make your daily life easy for a while.
Close your eyes and envision a life that ill make you happy in 20 years then open you eyes and make it happen.
Go to a meeting every day or twice aday for the next 90 days......let yourself heal-up alittle.
WE ALL LOVE YOU.....REALLY LOVE YOU......AND WANT THE BEST FOR YOU......Hope to see ya at a meetin'