I want to get high when he hangs out with girls..
Posted: Sun May 23, 2010 8:50 pm
Hi.. i dont know what to do.. i have been with my bf for almost 2 years.. i was clean almost a year when i met him then relapsed when he cheated. Then when he saw how bad i got because of this he stopeed cheating and lieing and became the perfect bf. This happened in november that he is being good. since then i have been on and off drugs behind his back but for the past month i have been on and he was caugh me LITERALLY 5 TIMES A WEEK lieing and getting high and now i ruined it. why couldnt i be good when i got him where i wanted him? now he kinda starting old habits.. but its my fault but now i realizede i messed up and wanna stop but i think its too late.. im so dependant on him even down to my cigs everyday. i should just go and get cleAN and proove it to him but he goes out and it makes me wanna get high.. what do i do? i have no money no confidence, no nothing... i just want to be the old me. im having a hard time accepting what i turned into i was never a lier or anything like this.. ugh i could go on all day.. any advice?