I really need all the suggestions and advice possible
Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2014 11:50 am
I just joined this site minutes ago in desparation. My name is Bevie I'm 22 and my partner is a heroin addict.
This post is going to be all over the place I'm sorry but I'd like to hear TRUE success stories an tips on how to cope, I've never felt pain quite like this before.
I found out 8 days ago, I went through her phone for the first time in our relationship and saw the conversation with her dealer. I instantly began vomiting and its been hell from there. She hid it so well! She told me everyday how she wouldn't go back to it because she knew I would leave abd she knew she would lose everything, while she was on heroin! I promised myself I'd leave if she went back to it but I can't. I can't do it. It's been 10 days since she's used. I watch her take her suboxone everyday and I bought very expensive at home drug tests for my own sanity purposes. When I found out I said SUCH mean things. Things I'd never think I'd ever say to her. Good God I didn't think I was capable of saying such awful things to her.
When I first met her she was beautiful in every single way a person could be beautiful, she was amazing, EVERYTHING I've ever wanted. She told me she used to be an addict, but she had been clean as a whistle for 2 years. That was the first of many many lies that I believed.
This post is going to be all over the place I'm sorry but I'd like to hear TRUE success stories an tips on how to cope, I've never felt pain quite like this before.
I found out 8 days ago, I went through her phone for the first time in our relationship and saw the conversation with her dealer. I instantly began vomiting and its been hell from there. She hid it so well! She told me everyday how she wouldn't go back to it because she knew I would leave abd she knew she would lose everything, while she was on heroin! I promised myself I'd leave if she went back to it but I can't. I can't do it. It's been 10 days since she's used. I watch her take her suboxone everyday and I bought very expensive at home drug tests for my own sanity purposes. When I found out I said SUCH mean things. Things I'd never think I'd ever say to her. Good God I didn't think I was capable of saying such awful things to her.
When I first met her she was beautiful in every single way a person could be beautiful, she was amazing, EVERYTHING I've ever wanted. She told me she used to be an addict, but she had been clean as a whistle for 2 years. That was the first of many many lies that I believed.