I can't take it anymore!!!
Posted: Sat Oct 23, 2010 1:48 pm
I found this site and don't really know how this works but here goes......
I am 28 years old with 3 children. I am living with a man who is addicted to pills..which ones I don't even know because he lies so much. First it was percocets..then he went into rehab after we were about to get evicted from our home because he was lying about paying the rent. Then he was taking charcoal pills from an herbal store and was supposed to be all better... after that came suboxone.....and from what i understand he never stopped taking the percocets. Now a co-worker has introduced him to methadone...and some days he is okay but most days he is always yelling at my children and arguing with me about any and everything....I even tried taking him to church and he was texting someone for pills and left...He has thrown things at me and my children and chased us down the street before when I was trying to leave with my kids. I used to sleep in the car some nights with my babies. My family has lost respect for me because he is still in our lives. He called for an ambulance one night saying he felt like he was having a heart attack and when he went into the er and they would only give him motrin...he walked out without being discharged. And about a month ago he was on top of the balcony standing on the rail as if he was going to jump in front if my 2 year old son...he puts me down all the time..he lies on me to his coworkers and all our mutual friends .....I used to be a beautiful woman with high self esteem and happiness..My friends won't come to my house ...I am alone....My children need me and he has stripped me of who I am!He tries to make me fell worthless and if it weren't for my faith I don't know where I would be. If I ask him to leave I fear he will physically harm us all...He sold the television and claims he did it to get me a birthday gift. ...I don't know what to believe...and I am afraid of what he is capable of and I cry all the time because I have so much to worry about and no one to talk to...my mind is all over the place but i am actually trying to get better and seek help so i have a lot of stories over the past 4 years and I am just tired of going through this. He says he is on methadone only to stop from needing the percocets and takes one a day ..which is a lie..he was taking about 20 percocets a day....$200 a day and now he doesn;t bring his pay stubs home lies about what he makes and gets angry when I ask him for money for the house and the kids and the bills....I am so lost and regret the day i met this man and don't know how to help him but I realize i have to help myself for my children. I just got a job and i am working towards my independence again but i could use some advice.
I am 28 years old with 3 children. I am living with a man who is addicted to pills..which ones I don't even know because he lies so much. First it was percocets..then he went into rehab after we were about to get evicted from our home because he was lying about paying the rent. Then he was taking charcoal pills from an herbal store and was supposed to be all better... after that came suboxone.....and from what i understand he never stopped taking the percocets. Now a co-worker has introduced him to methadone...and some days he is okay but most days he is always yelling at my children and arguing with me about any and everything....I even tried taking him to church and he was texting someone for pills and left...He has thrown things at me and my children and chased us down the street before when I was trying to leave with my kids. I used to sleep in the car some nights with my babies. My family has lost respect for me because he is still in our lives. He called for an ambulance one night saying he felt like he was having a heart attack and when he went into the er and they would only give him motrin...he walked out without being discharged. And about a month ago he was on top of the balcony standing on the rail as if he was going to jump in front if my 2 year old son...he puts me down all the time..he lies on me to his coworkers and all our mutual friends .....I used to be a beautiful woman with high self esteem and happiness..My friends won't come to my house ...I am alone....My children need me and he has stripped me of who I am!He tries to make me fell worthless and if it weren't for my faith I don't know where I would be. If I ask him to leave I fear he will physically harm us all...He sold the television and claims he did it to get me a birthday gift. ...I don't know what to believe...and I am afraid of what he is capable of and I cry all the time because I have so much to worry about and no one to talk to...my mind is all over the place but i am actually trying to get better and seek help so i have a lot of stories over the past 4 years and I am just tired of going through this. He says he is on methadone only to stop from needing the percocets and takes one a day ..which is a lie..he was taking about 20 percocets a day....$200 a day and now he doesn;t bring his pay stubs home lies about what he makes and gets angry when I ask him for money for the house and the kids and the bills....I am so lost and regret the day i met this man and don't know how to help him but I realize i have to help myself for my children. I just got a job and i am working towards my independence again but i could use some advice.