Sobriety Online

Today is 11 with no herion!! It's not my first time around, I have been in and out of the room for 10+ yrs. I am sick and tired of fighting this devil. I am trying to keep myself as busy as possible. It's is extremely hard for me to stay outta my head. I am so lonely and depressed. I miss my boyfriend so much. ( he is court appointed to rehab) I find myself worrying about him and out future.
I have been going to meeting as much as possible. I find it very hard to talk to the other females so far. The meetings have been out numbered by men 12 to one women. I'm not looking for a man I'm looking to stay sober. I have been tempted to make a call but havent. It's easy for me to take easy way out and get high. At least my addiction tells me that's the easy way. It's not!! God help me focus on ME for once do the right thing.

If you cant stay busy, go to bed.
Sleep is good.
Too much sleep is not but too much of anything is not good.
I'd rather sleep than drink.
Just for today.
Z

to the person having trouble staying out of your head after 26 years. Is that your original head or your sober head?
If it's your sober head I would suggest helping someone else to get out of your own mush.
god bless
I hope that doesn't happen to me.