by jksmith116 » Thu Sep 20, 2012 1:31 am
I just replied to someone that requested support and I feel like a hypocrite. I went to Rehab back in November and just slipped up this weekend. I've had 2 yrs of sobriety about 3 years ago and just recently 9 months. I thought I had it all under control back then so I had just one drink and one drink led to another.
I used to miss work and did that again this past Friday when I missed work. Anyway, I realized that I felt like I was losing control. My husband has had medical issues for the past 2 years and hasn't been able to work. I am the sole support and money is unbelievably tight. I just started a second job to help with the bills and am waiting for Social Security to- hopefully-approve disability. I just wanted to escape from all the pressures and feel unbelievably quilty about screwing up. I know I'm supposed to look back, accept what I did and not do it again but I'm an emotional wreck. Some days I wish I was back in rehab b/c it was all about me. People helped me be me and accept what I did and understand why I did it. I do go to therapy and have been doing so for the past 5 years. But sometimes it is just more than I can handle. I was married and divorced after I graduated college and was single for almost 20 years. My first husband left me in debt and I worked 2 & 3 jobs for years and fought my way out of debt and bought my own house. But I have always felt like money problems were always around the corner and now I am right back to where I was years ago worrying about money.
Does anyone have any words of encouragement?
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