Hi In need of hugs
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Here are many ways to help yourself stay sober and in control.
I would suggest a few things that help me.
Realize that what you're going through is an illness. Don't feel bad about yourself.
Hold your head up high and remember that you are a worthwhile individual that has something to contribute in this life.
Concentrate on the positive things in your life.
Have a mantra that you can quote each and every time negative thoughts arise. Mine is "I have a winning hand" (as in cards).
Share what you are going through with your fiance. Don't shut him out, be embarrassed or think he may love you less.
Good luck and hold your head up high.