First time
Posted: Thu Oct 02, 2014 9:46 am
I am a mother of 2 and and addict for over 20 years secretly. Ive never told anyone other then my husband who is also dependent on drugs. He doesnt want to get clean but i do! I am an undercover addict. no one knows that i endulge in bad things. I live a life of false faces and I'm tired of it! I want to be straight to be a better mom, a better professional and a better person. Im not the average addict. Not that I'm any better! I go to work, I have a great job. I take care of my kids but I also behind closed doors am addicted to my drug of choice. I am ashamed to admit this. I now know why I started doing it but I have confronted that issue and I am ready to move on with my life I want to let it all go! I am seeking help from someone who has been there. Im facing a hardtime to come but I know that I can do this. I have no choice now. I promised myself that I would do it for my kids! I love them more then life itself. They are 6 and 8 and they deserve better then a mom that hides in a room at night doing something, cause they dont know I dont do anything in front of them. But i want to be there in person more. Please tell me how i can achieve this goal. I am desperate and need a helping hand.