Terrified by what the future may hold if I continue this
Posted: Thu Jan 14, 2016 12:52 amI have been an addict for 14 years, I am 28. Anything that alters my state of mind has been either a best friend or a passing fad. I am now and have been in Suboxone maintenance for 5 years and still I use. It's ruining my life, my fiancées parents(whom we are living with do not trust me at all and even have taken control of my bank account and all other aspects of my life). I'm hopelessly depressed and turning to drugs had been to only thing keeping me from committing suicide. I want it to be over, I am crying so hard writing this and have everything to live for but as Slim Shady once said "These drugs really got a hold on me". I don't know what to do, nor am I even ready to just quit, please help me.