Sobriety Online

So i have some questions, i am trying to get sober. I have been in the drug game since i was 12 years old. I have anothing but street knowledge. Im now on felony probation. I live with my mom an brother, all my friends are druggies. I have a long history with methamphetamine. But i want to be normal again. I barely sit with my momma anymore cuz i see the heartache when im high or even when im not due to all the shit i have said or done to her an in my life how an where to start. I dont want to leave home.