Drugs are Destroying my Life
Posted: Fri Nov 07, 2008 8:25 pm
Hello to whoever reads this,
About 5 months ago, my life was fairy tale perfect. I had been proposed to by my highschool sweetheart who I'd been dating for 5 years, we had just bought a new home, and I had just finished my Pharmacy Technician program and got a good job at a nearby pharmacy. About a month later, I became increasingly stressed and depressed over going back to school full time, working full time, wedding planning, making sure bills were payed, and getting through pneumonia. At this point, I couldn't handle it all and started taking hydrocodone to help me get through the day. It seemed like no matter how hard life got these pills could get me through it and make everything better. After that I started taking them more and more till my tolerance was so high that I was taking around 150-200 mg or 15-20 of the strongest hydrocodone a day. At one point I was so sedated that I fractured a bone while out on a jet ski and didn't even feel it till later that night when I was asleep and the drugs had worn off. Finally one night I had a drug overdose and the next day I quit my job at the pharmacy leaving me with no more hydrocodone. I thought this was it and I could move on with my life without drugs, but I was wrong. Then I just started abuseing the adderall that I'm prescribed to. I went through a 3 month supply in 3 weeks. When that was gone I resorted to cocaine and the whole time I've been decieving my fiancee and everyone else that I love. Now I've fell into this deep depression and do nothing but just sleep and cry all day. My fiancee wants to help me but he just can't handle seeing me like this and has started drinking heavily from the moment he wakes up til the moment he passes out at night. Now I feel like I'm not only destroying myself but I'm bringing down the person I love the most as well. I know we both need help now but I don;t know where to go or how much it cost's. We both have insurance but it's through our parents plan's and we don't want them finding out about this, it would tear them apart. If anyone who has read this has any good advise or suggestions, please help us.
About 5 months ago, my life was fairy tale perfect. I had been proposed to by my highschool sweetheart who I'd been dating for 5 years, we had just bought a new home, and I had just finished my Pharmacy Technician program and got a good job at a nearby pharmacy. About a month later, I became increasingly stressed and depressed over going back to school full time, working full time, wedding planning, making sure bills were payed, and getting through pneumonia. At this point, I couldn't handle it all and started taking hydrocodone to help me get through the day. It seemed like no matter how hard life got these pills could get me through it and make everything better. After that I started taking them more and more till my tolerance was so high that I was taking around 150-200 mg or 15-20 of the strongest hydrocodone a day. At one point I was so sedated that I fractured a bone while out on a jet ski and didn't even feel it till later that night when I was asleep and the drugs had worn off. Finally one night I had a drug overdose and the next day I quit my job at the pharmacy leaving me with no more hydrocodone. I thought this was it and I could move on with my life without drugs, but I was wrong. Then I just started abuseing the adderall that I'm prescribed to. I went through a 3 month supply in 3 weeks. When that was gone I resorted to cocaine and the whole time I've been decieving my fiancee and everyone else that I love. Now I've fell into this deep depression and do nothing but just sleep and cry all day. My fiancee wants to help me but he just can't handle seeing me like this and has started drinking heavily from the moment he wakes up til the moment he passes out at night. Now I feel like I'm not only destroying myself but I'm bringing down the person I love the most as well. I know we both need help now but I don;t know where to go or how much it cost's. We both have insurance but it's through our parents plan's and we don't want them finding out about this, it would tear them apart. If anyone who has read this has any good advise or suggestions, please help us.