am i here or not
Posted: Wed Jul 08, 2009 5:12 am
Here i sit wondering if i am doing this for me or because i am supposed to. i have been to rock bottom before (jail homeless) and i keep fucking up . I am doing things differently i think . i got a home group a sponsor and am making 2 meetings a day. problem is i feel like shit after 34 day all i hear is how great everyone feels NOT ME ????? i share almost every meeting and i feel better for a bit but it seems to be short lived. the road back seems so long . I sleep about four hours a night my mind RRRRAAAACCCCCEEEESSSSS all day all night 24 hrs a day. i generallly am hating life right now what can i do?????