by allims83 » Fri Jun 24, 2011 3:21 pm
See, your thinking is the problem. You "thought" you could just stop going to meetings. You "think" this isn't going to work. It took me a while to realize that I don't just have a problem with alcohol, in fact, that is just a surface issue. The real problem is not the obsession with alcohol (granted, this is the first problem to tackle), but the real problem is my obsession with myself. As I examine all of my fears, resentments, problems, and other issues that drives my thinking out of control, I see a common theme. ME. It's all about me and my pride. I have lived a life full of fear because I am worried about myself. I am early in recovery, but I am looking forward to working the program and breaking the chains that my ego bounds me up in. I can't wait for serenity, humility, honesty, and peace. I encourage you to surrender, go to meetings, listen, and (the hardest of them all) stop thinking. It will be very uncomfortable at times, but so worth it. Hang in there and good luck.