by abclimo » Fri Aug 19, 2011 4:04 pm
Hi. I read your post and I can really relate to where you are at in your recovery. I too just celebrated my 3 week clean mark from a serious dilaudid addiction. I have tried out 5 different NA meetings so far and have found 3 that I really like and where the people relate to me and I can relate to the people and they make you feel very welcome. You should definitely find some NA meetings in your area and start going, if not with your husband, than at least by yourself, they help me tremendously. Not all meetings are the same, so if you don't like the first one or two, don't give up, keep trying. It's a huge inspiration when you go to a meeting and you see people that have been clean long term. They talk about the problems they had with their family in the beginning, how they were able to stay clean so long, etc. Also, you can build a network of phone numbers of people to call BEFORE you do something stupid like pick up and use again. Please don't take this as insulting, but your husband needs to grow up and attend a meeting or two so he can see how other addicts get on with their lives. There is a website for NA and it lists local meetings by county, time, and location. It also says whether they are opened or closed. At my Tuesday night meeting, there was a newer guy there, and one of his friends and his brother attended. There is another young fellow who comes with the support of his girlfriend. I agree with bets that you need to do this for you....it's hard to stay clean when someone is being unkind to you, you view it as an "excuse" to use. Goodness knows, I had enough of those excuses during my addiction. If you need someone to talk to, you can email me and I'd be happy to answer you back with any questions you might have that I can answer, or I'll point you in the right direction if I don't know. You definitely need to do this for you and for your kids, mine were and are my biggest inspiration and reason to stay clean. I'll keep good thoughts and prayers for you and hope you find your way....