by stressedeng » Wed Aug 17, 2011 7:36 pm
Another one of falls down. Went thru a short rehab 2 years ago, stayed sober for 8 months then my daughter came home from school and had a bunch of friends over and when I came down in the morning there were more empty booze bottles than one could count. The bathroom in the foyer was full of vomit on the floor, the toilet you name it and it was there. My daughter was a motivating force in my attempt to stop drinking. My habit, I thought was pretty normal. Come home from work, come up to my office, make a manhatten and go to work on the computer. I am an very successful engineer working in the broadcasting industry and I do a lot of design work at home. A hour or so later it's a light dinner with a light head. I recently lost my dad to a long bout with cancer, simply horrible. Then slowly but surely the drinking/work time got longer. My wife complained, but hey I was just working, right? After all, I have 3 degrees, I must know what I am doing! Then one Saturday morning I had 2 projects running due Monday and I took a hit, then another and another. I never go to bars, don't drink at social events because of the driving issue. I knew I had a problem, so I went back to the after work game. Little by little I alienated my wife, daughter who moved back home after she finished school and my son who is attending school locally. Everybody demanded I stop, but hey they all drank too. I started meetings a week ago, and my head is getting clear. I have relationships to repair and I am trying. The world I live in revolves around booze. The clients always want meetings at the bar, it is so damn hard to get away from it. Me, being a functioning alcoholic got promoted this week. Crazy as it sounds, it woke me up. What could I do if I had a clear head.Maybe it was a messsage that I got something big, but I had to give back something big..alcohol!. This site is great, I have browsed thru it and it is giving me something other than work and drinking to do. I need a lot of support, here I see I can get it. Can't get it from my friends, they are all at the bar right about now. It's going to be a long tough road, pray for me. I have been doing a lot of that myself.