by fluffy » Sun Nov 06, 2011 1:57 pm
Hi Everyone,
I am not entirely new to AA/12 step programs. I have 3 weeks w/o alcohol. Having tried AA twice before and accumulating 7 months w/o alcohol I am lucky to be back. It feels different this time because I am "getting" it by listening at meetings for positive things, not judging and being open. I am realizing how I have used "being different" as an excuse to deny my drinking problem. I am also learning a lot of people do not get it the first time. I am fortunate to be back and accepting my alcoholism. Not drinking one day at a time is an important principle of AA.
Continuing to drink after being sick/hung over the next day, and expecting it to be different when I drank again is crazy. I, too, have diagnoses of depression and anxiety. Drinking alcohol increases depression, causes difficulty sleeping and overall is a bad thing. Sure, feeling good for the time drinking was short lived by the suffering afterwards. I am glad to have this opportunity to post on an AA board. Reading previous posts has helped me.
Thank You.