by abclimo » Tue Oct 25, 2011 9:51 am
Jenna: Welcome! Unfortunately there are no meetings in your area during the school day. There are a bunch in Shippensburg, but all are 6 p.m. or later. There are a bunch in Lemoyne at noon, and it says that is about 27 miles from you, not sure if that works for you travel wise, so it's just a suggestion. You can keep posting here and we'll all help you as much as we can. Meetings are important because its vital to find a sponsor, someone who you can talk to on the phone or face to face and who you can trust. I know that weekends are harder for everyone, all that free time on your hands and most people get paid on Fridays so the money is available for drugs. Since you were clean for so long, you know you can do it. We are a people with the disease, ask if we want drugs, we're probably going to say yes, especially if we are feeling stress, pressure, or it's a good day. We are the best excuse makers there are. That "friend" that came over isn't really a friend if he's still in addiction, because it'll be tempting to you. In NA they say we need to change our friends to people who do not use. I know that can be hard too, but living life in active addiction is much harder. Next time instead of picking up, do something else, like go for a walk, clean your house to within an inch of it's life (one of my faves), cook or bake (my absolute fave), go to the mall and walk around, do anything that will distract you from the urge to give in to using. You can do it, just keep positive and keep posting.