by abclimo » Wed Dec 28, 2011 8:29 pm
Secret Junkie: Welcome! I can really relate to your post. I too had my drug of choice prescribed to me and in quantities that would shock you. One day, you just decide you don't want to live your life that way and you want to stop taking it and can't. I went to rehab to get off the "prescribed" medications. I can now say I am drug free and happy about it. When I look back with my thinking clearer now than it had been in a long time, I can't image how I got through the days sometimes. I thought I was in control and everything was going fine. HA I can't imagine what I must have been thinking or not thinking at the time. I just thank god, higher power, and guardian angels that I didn't die and can now look back amazed at just how out of control I was in my life. You have taken the first step by admitting that you have a problem and are not doing it this time because you are being forced to. Definitely keep posting here, people will respond to your posts, we want to help. Find some meetings to go to, try several, they are definitely not all the same. Network with people at the meetings and get phone numbers that you can call before you pop that next perc. Find someone that you are very comfortable talking to, who can be your sponsor and help you get through this very difficult time. I will tell you the truth, detoxing is ugly. It may be one of the most difficult things you do. When you look back, you will realize how worth it your family is. You have two children to take care of and who care about you. Use them as your inspiration everyday to not take another drug. You can do this!