by abclimo » Thu Jan 19, 2012 12:26 pm
Hi and welcome! It's a tough war everyday, to stay clean/sober. It's planning ahead and making sure you have a plan in place for when the temptations jump up in front of you. It's a great feeling when you make the decision that you are tired of that merry go round ride and want to get off. Sometimes it's really hard to stop, but it's so worth it. When you don't have to wonder what you did the night before, or what you may have said, it frees you. I recently hear the statement "lies keep us sick" and I so believe it. We get to be so good at lying, that we can even make ourselves believe our own lies. A big part of staying clean/sober is to uncover what makes us do what we do. For so many, it's self-medicating, so we don't have to deal with the pressures of others, ourselves, feelings, etc. Unfortunately with the disease of addiction, and it is a disease, we so many times can have a transfer addiction, you give up one addiction only to have another. We all have today and we can get through today and stay/clean or sober, to tell ourselves that we'll never do it again is just so overwhelming. In the beginning, I had trouble looking at staying clean/sober for the whole day, so I broke it down into smaller increments. You can do this and you have a lot of us behind you supporting you. Keep posting, we do care!