by Sadandpowerless » Sat Oct 06, 2012 7:22 pm
I have absolutely no will power. I use my drug of choice every day. When I wake up in the morning, in the middle of the day, when I get home and when I'm getting ready for bed. I have absolutely no power against myself. I tell myself constantly, I don't need it, I'm better without it. I can live a clean sober healthy life. I want it, so badly. But I just can't stop myself from reaching for that drug. And once I'm high, I wish I would've just stayed sober. I'm so angry with myself. I wish I was a different person. Someone clean and healthy, and strong, and powerful. Instead I'm just this junkie, with no self control, and no hope.