by collegekid552 » Sun Jul 07, 2013 8:27 am
i seem to fall back into my old habits only days after drinking. my usual pattern consists of a weekend binge followed by an effort to not drink. I have no problem abstaining for short times but its like i "forget" my desire to stop and go back to binging. I have been able to stay somewhat successful (graduated from college and held a good job) but i feel that it is because i have been able to hold on that is why i am still drinking. I have a history of smoking pot (10 yrs) and have managed to stay clean for the last 3 months with no issue. It has also been my pattern of quitting one substance for a time period and switching to another before going back to the original use patterns. i have maintained good relationships in my life but im getting to a point where it is no one but me choosing to do this. i have both using and non using friends so it is not my social circle, i seem to use the same regardless of whos company i am in. I would just like some advice about how to not forget my desire to stop drinking soon after...i just feel that i have a way of minimizing/telling myself that im okay to continue. i guess i feel like i just dont know any other way to be...? i am starting to give serious thought about getting sober but need some help!!!!
THanks