by tera » Thu Oct 31, 2013 2:44 pm
I too have wondered if I can actually quit drinking. I have had 60 and 90 days, always to return to the bottle, letting myself believe this time I can CONTROL it. Well, now I have finally realized I cannot control it, nor drink like a regular person. However, I still wonder if I can STOP! I have to stop or lose my fiancé whom I am very in love with and want to share my life with, I am at my rock-bottom. I am having medical issues related to drinking, causing family uproars when I become drunk and "not me". Still, I wonder if I can actually use all these truths and all the knowledge I have acquired to stop the drinking in its tracks before it ruins me. I am on day 11 and have thought of a drink only about twice. My new approach is to tell myself alcohol is not an option for me, it will kill me. It helps to just keep it in my head that there is NO OPTION, NO CHOICE! AA helps too, but I still have to dedicate myself to going thru the steps with a good strong sponsor. When I go to an AA meeting now, instead of saying "My name is Tera and I am an alcoholic", I say "My name is Tera, and I CAN"T DRINK!" That seems to jolt me, I hear myself say it out loud and it gets me thru the day without much thought of alcohol at all. I think I will start just saying it out loud in the mirrow a few times a day and see if that even helps more. Well, good luck to you, its nice to have people out here in cyberland who understand what we are going thru doesn't it?