by orange » Sat Oct 19, 2013 11:06 am
i am an alcoholic....i have been in and out of aa since i was14...the longest i have ever been sober is about6 months....its not that i drink everyday (anymore), but when i drink it is non stop i just don't stop until of course i pass out...i recently decided to try and not drink for 1 year to see if i could do it!i like waking up feeling good and not questioning my night! of course i only made it for 12 days!! now i feel shitty about myself and feel bad for the people i love who dont want me to drink.... i let them down as well as myself! i am sick of my brain tricking me into thinking i will be fine if i only have 1....deep down i know 1 is really a million! how do i stop letting my brain trick me?