by mara d » Wed Jul 02, 2014 3:02 am
Hi, I am an alcoholic, my name is Mara. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Over 19 years ago I was sober for over 2 years and happy. Then the lies started in my head, I didn't need AA, I could do this on my own. I started to find fault with meetings: too late, inconvenient, what does he know? I had "better things to do.......then it started, a few beers here and there, trying to prove one more time that I could become a social drinker. My pride stopped me from admitting the "slip" to any one, even my sponsor. I eventually dropped off the AA planet. The " not yets" started to happen. The experiment failed.
Today I am going to an AA meeting. I have proved to myself that I absolutely cannot do this alone, and my sick secrets and pride are slowly killing me.
Last bumped by Anonymous on Wed Jul 02, 2014 3:02 am.