wendeee wrote:
> I am one day sober and I am scared to death. It seems like a cycle, I stop
> drinking for a short period of time and then my twisted mind says...your
> not really an alcoholic you can control your drinking. I tell myself I
> just wont drink hard liquor this time and just stick to wine. We all know
> it never works out like that. I am ruining my life and I know it. When I
> would quit drinking life just seemed so boring. I dont work at the time
> and have no hobbies and never have. So back to drinking and you think life
> isnt boring anymore but then all the problems start again and its always
> worst and worst every single time. I am going to go back to AA and look
> into churches with programs for recovery. I want this so bad. I know once
> I am sober a month or so I cannot let boring tell me to go back to
> drinking. I am determined to do this for myself and my family. My
> marriage might be over and I have kids that wont talk to me but I know with
> God's help I will get thru this and be better off then before. Nothing is
> worst then living this way. I have not had any friends in forver and I
> hope thru AA I can find some. We all can do this!! Yes we all can do this only together we can so this