by Guest MF » Mon Aug 25, 2008 9:59 pm
Hello,
You are not alone. I have done everything you mentioned above and I too had that blurry feeling. I personally think it was the E. I noticed that my speech started to become slurred when I was sober and I could not speak what I was thinking. The best advice I can give you is to stop it all and find new friends. In my situation I could not turn down a line or a pill if it was around. I needed to find new sober friends. That and truly making the decision to quit is what helped me. I've been completley clean for over 5 years and have a great job. Things can change, but you have to make them happen. You could also go to an NA meeting. I know that my school had one once a week and everything was confidential. Good luck and I would be willng to talk more if you want. I also experienced alcoholic parents and my boyfriend who was a crack addict commited suicide so I understand all that you said. I wish you the best. Mandy