Hi John,
You're lucky to have such a motivator! You'll be around for his first steps, you'll show him how to play catch, you'll be a father to him. Staying clean is all good.
I'm married to an alcoholic, and I'll be one of the people on this board answering your wife's questions if she has any!
My drug of choice was nicotine. I quit. Now I'm a workaholic. It may make you smile, but it's a great way to lose yourself and forget about everything. The only difference: It's accepted by society so I don't have to hide and/or be ashamed of my actions. But...
Keep coming back and share if you want.