by Tom's Time » Wed Jan 14, 2009 8:25 am
I was in your shoes (31) days ago today. I stopped on Dec 15, 2008. There is no turning back for me, I surprised myself and found inner strength that has been sitting there idle for a long time, just never used it. In my short (31) days I have come to realize that when I talk to family and friends it makes me even stronger. There is a strong feeling of freedom when I tell folks about habits that I would otherwise be embarrassed to tell prior to stopping. I have nothing negative to tell you about the first (31) days, it's all good for me. It's kind of funny, when I joined this site I thought there would be a lot more interaction, but there was not. In retrospect I think that was good for me because I was looking for a lot of support. As it turns out the foundation that I needed to build was within myself and by myself. I told my pastor a couple of weeks ago that something that he has said over the years has finally became of use to me, he said that when you pray two things can happen, one is that the situation changes and the second is that you change in the situation. He pressed me at a finance meeting last week on why I mentioned that to him, I told him that I decided to stop drinking. Nothing worthwhile in easy, and this is worthwhile. Keep the faith and I hope you can stay strong.