by harmony1 » Wed May 20, 2009 10:15 am
I am not crazy about meetings either. I have tried to get sober going to them and it will work for a week or so and then I can't stand being dependant on a meeting. There has to be another way. I do believe in working the steps and prayer and exercise, I believe when the cravings or thoughts to drink come up, I need do to something in place of that something healthy and fast. I love working out, cooking(without the wine), studying, going on-line, cleaning my house, having a delicious coffee drink with lots of whip cream. I don't understand this alcoholism thing and I don't care I am just so tired of alcohol, a liquid screwing up my body,relationships,jobs,mental health,family, money, making me ambivalent to my goals. I have had it, today is my first day not drinking again, I will never quit quitting. One day god willing I will get it right, it's just a bad habit, like smoking. I was able to quit ciggs 12 years ago, can't stand the stuff now. I was able to quit cocaine,pills,pot. I can quit this too. I can't drink once in a while, I have one drink and next thing I know it is a year later and I have been drunk everyday, sad,alone,in jail what happened. I had a glass of wine or whatever. I am over it i will overcome this, so will you.pray for us