by msunderstood1 » Tue Jun 02, 2009 3:55 am
I am a 40 year old single mom. I was married forever. But we (my husband and I) started using cocaine once in a while. Eventually after a few years it had gone from twice per month to 4 times a week, sometimes more. Any way when we used I drank beer with it. It got to be too much, I left and have NOT used cocaine in over a year May 17th was a year. However Vodka now every nite. I cant sleep I am depressed about the end of my marriage, my family life. My husband and I together made enough money to live comfortably, including hair appointments, nail salons, shopping. When I left I lost all that, but I am okay on my measley $16,000 a year no child support. Hopefully that will change going to legal aid on Wednesday. I don't drink and drive with my kids. I work 6 days per week, I guess I am a functioning alcoholic. I have my own apt, and cook dinner every nite and help him with his homework. We are working on a puzzle its just I always have / need that drink. I can't sleep with out it. And obviously I can't sleep with it, b/c it is 4:53am and I passed out around 10:30, woke up at 3:29, can't get back to sleep and though I argued with myself about it here I sit with my drink ~ Vodka with a spalsh of Ice tea. I have to leave here at 7 to get my son off to school and myself to work.