I HAVE THIRRTY DAYS ONCE AGIAN !!! Problem is this this isn't the first happpened to me numerous time and i always seem to relarse for a day and am always so embarrassed to show my face in the rooms and it pisses me off. I have had as many as 3 yrs and 5 yrs but life on lifes terms sets me off again(actually my addiction and myself choose to use everytime. For all those people wanting to stay clean Get and use your sponsor. That what all this is about ask ask ask . PLUG yourselves in stay in contact in your first 10days until you die or i know for myself the first thing my addict mind says is I AM FUCKING CURED I DON'T FEEL ANYMORE URGES I CAN DO IT ALONE I AM STRONG ENOUGH . I have lived this first hand and lost all the bullshit and almost always end up alone wondering "how did i get here" or worst waking up in a cell somewhere
If one person gets some thing from my message or wants to give some advice it would be appreciated