by jayempea » Sun Jul 19, 2009 6:44 pm
Hi Kim.
I wish I could give you all of the answers but I'm certainly not the one to do it. What I can tell you is that I got off of opiates a couple of years ago and it was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and had the craziest sensations I never imagined. I give you lots of credit for having the courage to begin the process. I don't know what kind of how much you were using but please, if you can get through the next week or two, you can begin to work on the real recovery process, the REAL work. Myself, I was miserable having physical withdrawal symptoms that were quite honestly horrible (Oxycodone) but it did go away. My biggest regret to date is that I left it there. I got over the physical part and that's as far as I went. I ended up switching to something else down the road and in my sick brain decided that since it wasn't classified as an "opiate", I was still living my sobriety. Of course, we addicts can lie to everyone, including ourselves.
So, all I really want to stress is that yes, getting off of the stuff SUCKS....it really does. But please, get a plan in order for when the physical pain ends because the mental stuff.....it just doesn't go away. That's where I am today and struggling to get my own act together once again.
Best wishes to you for wisdom, strength and peace.