by Agnela » Mon Apr 26, 2010 4:23 pm
A little history. In 1996 i came to believe and i held on to that for eight years. I fell, relapsed for 3 months.The pain got great real quick. I got back on board.moved to a smaller town in pennsylvania.where I held on to three and a half years. I spent a year and a half goofing off with alcohol and drugs..my last use i thought i was gonna die. Death comes in many forms...mental emotional spriritual and physical..I thank my higher that the physical didn't result. I went on to the basics..rehab and now in a partial program. my new clean is 3/7/2010. My reality awakening is that I don't know how many days God has given me on this earth, but I know I don't have the right to erase myself and take my own life by any means. I need a lot of support..so I came in today to reach out to you all. I am not with transportation at this time..and meetings are hard to get to. A lot of people had given up on me before the relapse.. I am a loving caring and honest person..and believe it or not, choosing a simple lifestyle and livelyhood chased what I thought was my support away..wierd or what? Anyway...I have come to know that the God of my understanding is jealous, and doen't feel or think as humans do. so I pray and I am sure He will make away for me to get to all the right places and people for support. Your comments are welcome, hope to hear from someone sober real soon. Back On Board!