my man pushing me to the edge, the things he doing is not fare,
all this time he put up with my using, running away and comming back,I have some clean time
he's always working, no time for me any more, I think he's cheating not sure but all the sign is there, know he tell me he want to spend time with his boys, they not mine, his dam boy is 18yrs, I know something is up,I feel like running, he taking me for granted are a joke, I think I should leave for a while, my head is full, all kind of thought, I think he think he got a hook in my nose, I hate not having control my feeling, i'm always crying for time, so lonely,so I came on line and found this NA place, need help, don't want to run any more, are use, and don't want him to think that he can do to me what he want, i use to lean on him when I was getting clean, not know more so now he think he can control my life, tell me what to do, when to go out side, everything, I hate that I dont have control of my own life, so I will go away for a while before I explode,we been together 4 and a half years, things not to good in this house, I have no friends, are anybody, just him all my family gone, he took me from them to his self, know I'm along help me help my self please!